A chemical menopause

A chemical menopause

Sometimes all you need is to sit on a bench, in a park and watch the birds. Today, that was what my body and soul craved. Because I am 47-years-old, and my body is crashing into menopause.

I’m getting a GnRH injection every month (a type of drug which acts on the pituitary gland in the brain to suppress ovulation and production of ovarian hormones). It’s a strong drug, mainly used to treat prostate and breast cancer, but it has been a treatment for women with endometriosis for the last twenty years.

It’s been seven months, and my body is fighting against the triptorelin injection and its side effects. Sometimes I don’t notice them at all. Other days like today, they are making my life miserable.

My body is aching.
My legs are suffering from pins and needles.
My mood goes up and down.

Other side effects and symptoms I’m enduring are:

Insomnia.
Headache.
Anxiety.
Decreased libido.
Night sweats.
Fatigue.
Breast soreness.
Hot flushes.
Abdominal pain.
Nausea.
Dizzyness.
Leg pain.
Dry mouth.
Confusion.
Brain fog.

It’s not easy, but I rather experience side effects and menopause than life-changing surgery. Because that’s how severe my endometriosis is, and it has spread and attached itself to my organs. It would be too risky and complicated to have surgery.

I have noticed that it is still a taboo subject to talk about, which is a shame. As a woman, I feel that you should not be ashamed of your menopause. Talk about it and share what you are going through.

Because it’s nothing to be embarrassed about, what we as women are undergoing is a massive transformation, both emotionally, physically and spiritually.

Photo and words by Cath B

Cath B

Through loss, illness, rejection and healing I identified my joy and purpose - to inspire and motivate those seeking a more purposeful life.

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