“I used to be lost and confused, felt like I didn’t fit in, wanted more and could “feel” that there was more out there, but I didn’t know how to be true to myself – always thought that I had to please others. I thought that I would be happy if I just lost weight or met a man.”
Born in Sweden; I left school at sixteen, tried different jobs, was restless and moved to Copenhagen in Denmark. I loved living in Copenhagen and I even enjoyed my fulltime job as a shop manager at a big retail company. In my spare time I did tarot readings, photography and at one point I wanted to start my own music booking agency. I did start and I flew out to Iceland and pitched my idea to a venue. The deal fell through but I learned so much and I also realised that the music industry was definitely not for me.
I searched for a long time, trying to figure out who I was. It took me a long time to understand that everything that I needed was always within me, and I couldn’t force anything to happen because it would develop in time, and through my life experiences.
On the 24th of April 2009, I had a lifesaving colostomy operation and my mother was found dead. From that moment everything changed, and the person I used to be was no longer present. At the hospital, they told me that my tumour might be cancerous and I had to wait for the biopsy. After four days I found out that my tumour was benign, it was endometriosis that had caused my twisted bowel. Of course, it was a huge relief to know it was not cancer but it was difficult to be happy, because how could I be filled with joy when my mother was no longer here?
I was sad, devastated and angry, but for the first time, I was forced to be still because there was nothing else I could do. I had to focus on my recovery and learn my new routines with my colostomy. I had to let the healing take its time.
Slowly I began to listen within and trust in Spirit. It was a blessing to hear the guidance from my soul, my late mother and my Spirit guides, they had tried to whisper to me earlier in life, but me being too occupied I never listened. I had an “awakening” and I said to myself that I have to accept my situation, because there was nothing I could do about it. I couldn’t go back in time and change it. Being angry and sad would only do me more harm, and it would definitely not bring my mother back or get rid of my colostomy bag.
All things considered, I realised how lucky I was. I was alive, and after six months with my colostomy bag my colon had healed and I had a colostomy reversal. Which was a huge relief. After the second operation and during my recovery I found an enormous strength to carry on, and I wanted to be well again. I wanted to live my life to the fullest, follow my dreams, start a business and move to the UK…
…and I did.
This is the reason why I do what I do.
Supporting others to grow and follow their dreams gives me tremendous joy, and I want you to know that you are here for a reason. You are here in this lifetime because you have a soul mission to fulfil. You have probably always felt a bit different or lost, you have been looking and searching for something. It’s been difficult to identify what it is. You just know. You can feel it.
What you are searching for cannot be found in the external world. It’s within you. Your soul mission. You are here to grow. You are here to be happy and live your life. You are here to serve and be a beacon of light for others.
I understand that life on Earth is not always easy, nevertheless, the Source/God sent you here for a reason, and do not ever doubt your own abilities, they were given to you and it is time to follow your heart’s guidance and say YES to yourself.
Cath B Akesson
Founder & Owner